I’m all fucked up but in a good way💚
“Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (complex PTSD, sometimes abbreviated toc-PTSDorCPTSD) is a condition where you experience some symptoms of PTSD along with some additional symptoms, such as: difficulty controlling your emotions. feeling very hostile or distrustful towards the world.“
I googled that shit and I don’t know how to site my sources.
If you google it this is the first definition that pops up. Thank you to whoever articulated this definition so eloquently. I appreciate you.
CPTSD is a party hosted in hell that plays out in my mind and a memory in my soul of all the demons my past can find.
It is a horror film that I never purchase a ticket for. It is a nasty little asshole who wants to see me fail.
I have vivid memories and flash backs of my most tortured moments almost like a hallucination.
When it’s time to move again the demons stir up restlessness in my soul.
Im doing much better coping now and I would like to share how:
mental health awareness content
sharing the demons with the world causes guilt and shame. the world can be ugly I don’t want to be the same.
I don’t want to be a burden
Im afraid to take up space
I told my story to a hard old man
he said he wanted to kill him self it was so depressing
oh man what did I do
I never know if it’s safe to be true
I dont want to hurt anyone
I love to be happy
I love to make you smile
I love being helpful but after a while
I wonder if I’m too much
not that I’m godly I would never dare to think that
but I am tremendous
highly sensitive personality