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I’m all fucked up but in a good way💚


“Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (complex PTSD, sometimes abbreviated toc-PTSDorCPTSD) is a condition where you experience some symptoms of PTSD along with some additional symptoms, such as: difficulty controlling your emotions. feeling very hostile or distrustful towards the world.“

I googled that shit and I don’t know how to site my sources.

If you google it this is the first definition that pops up. Thank you to whoever articulated this definition so eloquently. I appreciate you.

CPTSD is a party hosted in hell that plays out in my mind and a memory in my soul of all the demons my past can find.

It is a horror film that I never purchase a ticket for. It is a nasty little asshole who wants to see me fail.

I have vivid memories and flash backs of my most tortured moments almost like a hallucination.

When it’s time to move again the demons stir up restlessness in my soul.

Im doing much better coping now and I would like to share how:




YouTube therapists

self affirmation






mental health awareness content

sharing the demons with the world causes guilt and shame. the world can be ugly I don’t want to be the same.

I don’t want to be a burden

Im afraid to take up space

I told my story to a hard old man

he said he wanted to kill him self it was so depressing


oh man what did I do

I never know if it’s safe to be true

I dont want to hurt anyone

I love to be happy

I love to make you smile

I love being helpful but after a while

I wonder if I’m too much

not that I’m godly I would never dare to think that

but I am tremendous


highly sensitive personality

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